liferelinquished

Faith

I live in the dusk, A half-shadow embracing me With grey fingers. I walk in the evening,  A dim twilight barely showing The shape of things.  Stillness swallows tears, Blunting them like falling snow  In a mantle over me. My words stop at my lips, Hushed before I hear them, Stagnant on my tongue. . […]

Breathe In

“My soul finds rest in God alone-” But you’ve given me a yearning that fills my chest with heated stones  and sets my lungs to burning . In Out Each breath adding to the flame And when I call upon your name you answer with more doubt . Why does faith require blindness? I try, […]

Weary

Mirrors make the best walls. This rot will spread: My bones will lie bleached before you and your sorrow will pay my debt. . This is why I’m gone: To owe nothing to anyone. I am weary, let me rest.  . It’s you or me,  and I love you and hate myself, so the choice […]

Depression from inside

I am only smiling at you because my cheeks are locked in this habit of baring my teeth, and it would take more energy than I possess to drop the wall that’s holding me together. Behind the smile I am an absence: Not darkness, just an absence of light. Darkness can be fought; Absence doesn’t […]

I Pray

A prayer for God to continue drawing me to Himself.

Prayer

A brief prayer for when I cannot even think of new words to pray, but I know He is still there, still listening, still loving.

Lonely

I hate small talk.