liferelinquished
Introductions
Surprise! Your body made a baby. You’re a god-blest god-damn 3-D printer With no instruction manual. This is the oldest profession, This motherhood thing, So we’re all experts. We assume you know what’s coming for you: What is digging into your shoulders already: The taste of the helpless mortality you face, Near-death to bring forth […]
John 8:1-11
Despite the boredom of daily chores, she enjoyed fetching the water. Reaching down in the cool abyss grew sweeter as the morning grew hotter. The well breathed a peaceful chill that begged a soul to stay, so she gladly drank long and deep to relieve the heat of the day. . She was completely unprepared […]
Joy
Scorched earth splits to let one fragile stem breathe. It pushes frail into the sun, yet stands against the teeth of heat and wind as if it has lived a thousand years. Such an unexpected gift could hardly flourish here – but it sustains, and bit by bit it lifts a leaf into the mourning […]
Faith
I live in the dusk, A half-shadow embracing me With grey fingers. I walk in the evening, A dim twilight barely showing The shape of things. Stillness swallows tears, Blunting them like falling snow In a mantle over me. My words stop at my lips, Hushed before I hear them, Stagnant on my tongue. . […]
Breathe In
“My soul finds rest in God alone-” But you’ve given me a yearning that fills my chest with heated stones and sets my lungs to burning . In Out Each breath adding to the flame And when I call upon your name you answer with more doubt . Why does faith require blindness? I try, […]
Weary
Mirrors make the best walls. This rot will spread: My bones will lie bleached before you and your sorrow will pay my debt. . This is why I’m gone: To owe nothing to anyone. I am weary, let me rest. . It’s you or me, and I love you and hate myself, so the choice […]
Depression from inside
I am only smiling at you because my cheeks are locked in this habit of baring my teeth, and it would take more energy than I possess to drop the wall that’s holding me together. Behind the smile I am an absence: Not darkness, just an absence of light. Darkness can be fought; Absence doesn’t […]
Prayer
A brief prayer for when I cannot even think of new words to pray, but I know He is still there, still listening, still loving.