liferelinquished

Joy

Scorched earth splits to let one fragile stem breathe. It pushes frail into the sun, yet stands against the teeth of heat and wind as if it has lived a thousand years.  Such an unexpected gift could hardly flourish here –  but it sustains, and bit by bit it lifts a leaf into the mourning […]

Faith

I live in the dusk, A half-shadow embracing me With grey fingers. I walk in the evening,  A dim twilight barely showing The shape of things.  Stillness swallows tears, Blunting them like falling snow  In a mantle over me. My words stop at my lips, Hushed before I hear them, Stagnant on my tongue. . […]

Breathe In

“My soul finds rest in God alone-” But you’ve given me a yearning that fills my chest with heated stones  and sets my lungs to burning . In Out Each breath adding to the flame And when I call upon your name you answer with more doubt . Why does faith require blindness? I try, […]

Weary

Mirrors make the best walls. This rot will spread: My bones will lie bleached before you and your sorrow will pay my debt. . This is why I’m gone: To owe nothing to anyone. I am weary, let me rest.  . It’s you or me,  and I love you and hate myself, so the choice […]

Depression from inside

I am only smiling at you because my cheeks are locked in this habit of baring my teeth, and it would take more energy than I possess to drop the wall that’s holding me together. Behind the smile I am an absence: Not darkness, just an absence of light. Darkness can be fought; Absence doesn’t […]

I Pray

A prayer for God to continue drawing me to Himself.

Prayer

A brief prayer for when I cannot even think of new words to pray, but I know He is still there, still listening, still loving.